Happy In My Head

There used to be a time in my life when I simply switched off the conversation mode and kept silence for days. People who had a taste of this medicine referred it as Eternal Silence. It was actually a survival mode for me. I withdrew to my shell whenever life didn't make sense to me and I needed time to recharge my batteries.

As I grow older, I have learnt to handle it better. Otherwise it was making me a huge pain in the ass for people who love me. Some people interpret the silence as coldness or numbness. But it is just a coping mechanism for people like us. Even though this is more of a depression phase, I like to refer it as "happy in my head". It gives me a lot of time to reflect on my decisions and I always come back to life with a lot of vigor.

I remember a conversation with a friend sometime back. He asked me what I did during weekend. I told him that I didn't step out of the house and spent two days doing nothing and keeping silence around me. As a fellow introvert, he just nodded and said "That's an ideal weekend! ". We both smiled while his wife complained about how difficult such people are.